Im sorry if i hurt you with my actions. Im really sorry. I really really am. I cant do anything to stop the others from saying things about me. Its up to you whether you wanna believe me or them. Its your life. Who am i to stop you? Im NOTHING. Just a worthless girl who happen to pass by your life.

Im sorry if i ever hurt you. Im really sorry.

Things just starts to goes wrong. Whats happening ? Im confused. Really confused. I cant concentrate on anything my studies. Whats up with me ? All i think was the 23 and everything else would just go wrong.

Im sorry. I cant tell what happened on that day a few years back. Im still feeling a bit of the feeling i had back then. Trying to get over it but with all the things happening in school and at home, i just cant.

I hate school. I hate peanut, bird and gang! I lost my interest in studying. I wanna quit school. ARGH~! Home just as sucky as ever. Got scolded and nagged 24/7. Im piss off with everything. I just want to end these stuff as quickly as possible.

DAMN!! I hate the month of april. It always made me feel so shitty and emo all over again. FCUK!

I have not been updating regularly. I know. Im sorry. There's just been a hell lot of argument between me and my parents. They kept nagging and scolding me and i was so damn piss that i dont even wanna look at them. So, i'll just cope in my room doing other things.

I cant use the computer cause i would have to go to their room. And in their room, they would be there. Thats the whole reason why i have not been updating lately. But now, i would be able to update regularly cause i have WIRELESS! Hahas. I can use darling in the middle of the night. Hehe.

Im just trying to see whether i can download messenger. LOL. Ooh. Did i mention that i have a time limit on using the computer. One day one hour. It sucks! But then again, i have darling to access the internet. Hehe.

Later on, i would be going to some event. Its at my grandmother's brother's house. And i have to meet the person i HATE most. Eurgh~! She's a POSER! Kept immitating my style and all that. No originality. Eeeww. Disgusting people. Heh.

Enough of the unhappy stuff. I just found out that Melvin got a girlfriend! Or so im told. Hahas. OMG! I cant believe a bird can charm a girl off her feet! LOL. Okay. That's bad. Really bad. Im sorry. Im just well, SHOCKED! Hahas. Aren't you ?

I woke up in the morning with 4 messages and 1 missed call. I fell asleep as soon as i hung the last call i received. Heh. Went to school with syahirah and every one was like wishing me happy birthday.

I had POA for the first lesson. Did the worksheet half way yesterday. Heh. Good improvement. I dont usually do POA homework. Hahas.

It was Mother tongue after that. I got scolded by Mdm Nora for not doing my corrections. As soon as i got back to my seat, i did them and hand up my book. I kept irritating farhan the whole time though. Hehe.

We had PE. Jeannette came at that time. Finally get to meet jeannette after two days. Hahas. She wore sunglasses to school! Nice. Hahas.

During recess, they had another suprised for me. They bought me cake. Thanks everyone. I really had fun just now. Really. Im not lying. I enjoyed myself very much. Thanks. =))

I doze off during ss/history. Heh. Ms Tey talked to me on my behaviour. I was like okay okay. But i dont really get what she was talking about. Hahas.

It was english then. Zhen hao warned me not to sleep in class. Hahas. Mrs Norlinda told us to do some english report. Obviously, i didnt do it. Hehe. Slacked around with zhen hao and yong jun. Hahas.

Maths was the last lesson for the day. Yay-ness! For the first 45 minutes of the lesson, zhen hao, yong jun and i was busy talking and not paying attention in class. Hehe. Then when my name was called out to do the sum, i freaked out. I didnt know anything! I was sleeping during maths lesson yesterday.

Ms Tan sort of reprimanded those who have not been paying attention in class espescially me. Im sorry. I will try my best to pay attention in class for every lesson. =D

School ended and i went straight to 3A. I called Ain but she didnt picked up her phone. So i called syahirah and she told me that they weren't going for NP. Took my LOA form and went to staff room. Got it signed, went down to canteen and passed to Samuel. And i went home.

I got a piggy bank from nicholas! So nice! I love it! I also like to say a BIG thank you to everyone else who had wished me and bought the cakes today. Thanks! =DD

Today is fun but tiring. Heh. I woke up in the morning, had my bath put on my clothes. I slept on the sofa. My mum woke me up and asked me to have my breakfast but i said later on. When she woke me up again, she asked me to send my brother to school.

After sending my brother to school, went to the traffic light and wait for syahirah. We walked to school. As we enter the school, the music starts to play. Heh. Just nice. Hahas. First lesson was biology. Ms Wong wasnt there. I did the worksheet given out and slacked.

It was english. I couldnt take it. My eyelids are drooping and i fell asleep. Zhen Hao kept waking me up but i still fell asleep. When Mrs Norlinda gave 2 min break, i immediately fell asleep and didnt wake until the lesson end.

POA was next. I did the worksheet. Heh. Ooh. We have POA homework. Will i do? It depends. Hahas. It was recess. I just ate oreo and nothing else. Oreo is nice! Hahas. Recess ended and we went up. As usual, we hang around behind the hall, while waiting for the others to settle down. Then suddenly Mrs Ong said "Shireen, get your friends to sit down." I was like huh? Did she just called me. Then Charmaine asked me and i was right. I quickly sat down and asked everyone else to sits down too.

It still puzzles me how she knows my name. The typical things i do happen for all the lesson. Sleep, played around and all that. Heh. Yong Jun asked why today i slack so much. Hahas. I just ignored him. Hee.

After school went to sakae with charmaine, georgina, gladys and ern. It was fun! They bought a cake and made me eat it. Heh. But it was pure fun even though today wasnt my birthday. Thanks guys! I really appreciate it. =)

Feeling so damn emo right now. The things and feelings i have been avoiding for so long is back to haunt me. I thought they have disappeared. But i was so WRONG!

That day is coming closer. Im afraid. Very afraid. I have a feeling something is gonna happen on that day... But what is it!!? Half of me want to know, but the other half dont want to know.

Eurgh~! I cant do this anymore. I know i should stop avoiding all the negative feelings! But i will get all weepy and all that. I need to face them but i dont have the courage to do so.

How much longer must i wait for my heart to stop beating ? At this point of time, i would do anything to speed up that day. Anything at all....

Ooh. Im sorry. I didnt update much for the past few days. Later on, i will have to report to sengkang sec. Today is NPDP preview. I have to attend the training despite of my current situation. Most prolly, im gonna be bac LATE. Sad.

I went to granny's house yesterday. I was told that my cousin would be getting married on wednesday! Hmm.. If i dont have anything on, i would meet up with her at granny's house. Ooh. I get to meet her husband! Heh.

Tomorrow is easter day! Yay! Chocolate, chocolate and more chocolate! LOLS. Ooh. And bunny. Heh. Im not sure whether i would go for the treasure hunt though. I'll confirm with syahirah or ain at night.

Kkaes. Gotta go. Mum bugging me to eat my brunch. =)